Thinkin Out Loud

I think about my blog all the time, about what I want to write to you. I hope to say something inspiring or tell you about the adventures I've been on. Anyone can ramble on about one thing or another, and I try to focus the topics of my blog back to the journey I've put myself into.

Now I'll be honest, I'm lost. lol   No idea where I am, and slight confusion as to where I've been. My main goal was to come to New Zealand where I aspired to surf, climb, and make the most of my life.  I am in the place where I've been reborn.

As you would expect, upon my return things are different than I remember. The main difference being that I've Finally entered into the real world, away from academia and models of idealism. My head is filled with grandeur ideas and that I am meant to change the world. Here I am, now how do I change it? What am I suppose to change? Is it really my job to change it? Does it even need changing?

It's nice that I've come across the time to contemplate such things, I'm eager to do something! My flatmate who is an inspirational musician told me that if I'm passionate about something, than I should go for it, and I agree. The problem is that I'm passionate about life, and everything that makes it up! I can't spread myself too thin, but I can't concentrate myself so much that I'm blinded from the rest.

There are three areas of interest that I'm particularly motivated by: Leading Edge of Science especially to do with Wildlife, The Art of Expression- Photography and Communications, Business- the Art of Management and Entrepreneurship. It may sound like I've broken it down nicely, but these are three huge areas of interest that just begin to overlap.

Then I want to prioritize, what's most important to me?  Love, Work, Education, Friends, New Zealand, Family, Conservation, Fun, Traveling...? Just to name a few. It seems each drives me in a new direction. I could just let life happen around me, but I don't just want to go with the flow, I want to help decide where. By now you're probably thinking I think to much, lol... I shouldn't worry so much. It's important to me though. If I'm going to be passionate and put my efforts into something, I want to do it properly. I have the drive and energy to make a big difference in this world, and I want to be able to give back to the people who've helped me so much.

I think BIG.

My mom always tells me, it'll all work out. It does too. I want to make the most of my life.