Relativity

We often wish we had what others did, something bigger, better or different. Even those who have the biggest and the best though, want something more. That's life. The trick is, wanting what you've got. I miss home like I never would've imagined. I've got everything I could have hoped for here in New Zealand, except for them. I miss you guys. I talk to friends and family, and they all wish to be traveling and doing what I do, funny that.

I'd love to give you a bit more wisdom... I guess we all have our worries, our problems, no matter the size or day. It's all relative.

Quilt of Memories

Today it finally hit me, my friend Berned is going home to Germany. After two and a half years in New Zealand, we've shared so many memories, so many friends, our dear friend Paula- Our crabby old pink Mitsubishi Mirage. I've kept the key to her, and will never forget when Berned and I took her out for one last go at the beach.

Let's just say, anything you've ever wanted to do to a car, we did it to her! Drove her into the ocean, pulled the e-break at full speed, zooming down the beach, launched er off the dunes, opened beer bottles with the seat belts (of course we weren't driving).

Paula was how I really got to know Berned, a co-owned car with first German guy I've ever met. So excessively "German," I learned to simply cut out any explanation, nicknaming him "The German." We'll maybe being excessively stereotypical isn't quite fair for explanatory purposes, but it made him very difficult to get along with. His bizarre behaviors, complaining, quick explanations, and laughter held under stern glare took some getting use to. I've grown to love his humor, especially when other people can't tell when he is or isn't serious, and poking out a smile whenever possible. I've come to really appreciate him for who he is, and love his crazy personality, a best friend.

Despite a wild going away party involving mulled wine and burning sugary liquor... it hadn't hit me that he was leaving until tonight. I can never refuse the offer of cheap stuff from an international leaving the country. I've come to find myself showered in the memories these international students shared with New Zealand and our friends here, through the items they leave behind.

I bought a car this week that has likely seen more of these island roads than I have, and the maps I'm given are well worn. Marked up with the exciting destinations that will now be the digital photos shared with our future families. Many of my clothes, furniture, and tools have had many owners and put to good use. We take care of the things we have, and pre-loved items share their adventures with me. when I look at the items all around me, they all have a history, and remind me of the incredible journey we are on.

I face many fears, of being alone, or forgotten amongst the memories. This dream life is not over for me, its more than just an OE (Overseas Experience), it's my life. It's wonderful, and I'm so afraid of loosing it.

I'm being swept up in this giant quilt, ancient time lines of experience and knowledge. I can't help but wonder what challenge the future will bring. I'm cuddled up by a warm fire, wrapped in the wisdom of the world hoping I can make patches as beautiful as the ones around me.

I will miss my friend, but our memories live on in this beautiful time line quilt.

Riches

I spend so much time deciding, who am I? I can be anyone I want to be. Thats a lot of pressure, what if I mess up? What if I spend all my time trying to be someone I am not? Is that possible?

We are taught to respect money as the highest thrown. Until I understood this about, I was so good at getting it. I dream of being rich, being able to spend on anything I want. Thats just what money is though, something you can spend on anything you want, and thats what we do everyday. If you are buying something you don't want, STOP. What's the point? America IS one of the richest countries in the world, why do we think we need more money? It's funny, money itself drives us mad. Wanting so badly to want something else to spend on.

I had been fighting with the idea that I would focus my working career on making large amounts of money, and be able to change the world with it. It doesn't work that way, at least not for me. If your focus is on changing the world, start there, not with money. Pick the goal, and the tools will begin to appear to help you achieve it.


Why is it we so badly want money? To make us happy? Happiness is what we should find in our everyday lives, in the people we spend our time with, and the work we invest ourselves into. Our short lives are for us to live, to enjoy or hate, really that choice is up to each of us.

I've found my small budget in New Zealand limiting, and frightening. For such a small amount though, I volunteer my time in the outdoor pursuits I enjoy and in turn, pay nothing. The best parts of my life, money couldn't possibly buy. A supportive family, a loving boyfriend, a sunny day, and loving friends who always help each other.

I fear these are the riches I take for granted, as the wealthy do their money. I don't ever want to live a meaningless life, take anyone for granted, or be selfish or forgotten. I want to love and share freely, and to enjoy every day of my life.

These moments are the riches we spend our whole lives chasing, sometimes forgetting they can't be bought.

I think I know who I am, a hippie, a dreamer, who hopes to change the world.

Kathrine was deemed queen of Isla de Capri, an imaginary island made from water bottles, this pump bottle was the first piece : )